Please stop hurting yourself. Please love yourself enough to let go. Please stop loving the person who doesn’t love you back. You will only hurt yourself – again and again.
I’m sorry. I know we’ve had a rocky, f*cked up relationship.
I’m sorry I ended a perfectly healthy and happy relationship. It would have been your chance to be happy but I let him go.
I’m sorry I put you through hell. But most importantly, I’m sorry I questioned you.
I know you were just caring and trying to protect you. I know you were worried about him. At the time I didn’t think that would ever happen. But I guess I was wrong.
I got scared of what the future may bring for you, and for that I’m sorry.
The truth is it hurt me too. It hurt to see you standing there, seeing your heart break into a million little pieces. It hurt to see the years of laughter and joy come to end. But I think the thing that hurt me the most was the reality that I needed to work on me.
I hope you find someone better because you deserve it. I hope you find somebody who shares your quirky personality, someone who is there to pick you up when you’re down, somebody who gives you their undivided attention. I hope you find happiness and love.
I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me even though I don’t deserve it.
Because life isn’t always perfect and peachy—but I’m ready to be there for you through the exciting ups and despairing downs and mediocre middles.
I will be there when you’re crying in loud sobs, heartbroken over harsh, stinging words.
I will be there when you’re happy, a silly smile stamped across your beaming face.
I will be there when you succeed.
I will be there when you fail.
I will be there when you’re lonely and feel like you haven’t got a friend anywhere.
I will be there when you’re panicked, scared and lost, curled up in a little ball on the bathroom floor.
I will be there, without question, without judgement, without blame.
Self, I am learning to love you with reckless compassion.
So I seal this note with a tender kiss and a pinch of magic.
I promise to be there for you.
I promise to love you, Self… today and forevermore…